The first thing I jotted yesterday which I hope to change if I had one month to live is to quit my job. The next day after jotting that down, I am back to work... LOL. (Disclaimer here: FYI, I do enjoy my work just that when you know you are about to "die", you wouldn't want to spend 1/3 of your day knowing that you only have 30 days left still at work...)
I struggled with the thought that how will this 30 days-to-live lifestyle challenge help or change me? Eventually, I had an ans to my question. First of all, I need to come to terms with the fact that it is not whether I quit my job that matters but how I use my time. And also, it's not as if I am really going to die in one month's time, God only you know. I still need to fulfill my basic responsibilities at work and for ministry.
I woke up this morning in a very lazy mode.. Not so much as if I am about to "die" in 29 days... Haha. (If you are totally lost, pls read my previous entry and you will have a better understanding)
Sluggishness overwhelmed me... the lazy and unmotivated me was greatly at work. My mind was saying "chey.. this is like any other day, so how is it going to be different?" I even had the thought of skipping my external course... (My carnal nature almost win but thankfully, I got off my bed in time)
I attended PPT 2007 training course, I was thankful to God that I did not allow my ill-discipline nature take over as I benefitted from the course to some extent. I also realise one thing about myself which is not a new relevation but a reinforcement. I have short attention span and super low energy. What energises me is when I am engaged in activities that stirs my interest or I see value in.
My learning style is not through conventional mode of learning through lecture, cos of that I really suffered a lot during my JC and Uni days... I learnt best through doing, reflecting & learning from my mistakes, I learnt most when I get to discuss with people on topic of interest, sparring of ideas when my mind is at tip-top condition (clear and active). I know myself well, no matter how hard I try when there's no inspiration, I can't work or contribute effectively. That's why I will usually give myself some buffer space to slow down, usually that when inspiration and ideas will come naturally.
The course was good in a way I can still multi-task while listening to the trainer and reply to emails and msn concurrently. My work has indeed trained me well.. hehe. :P
Supposed to meet Florence but she is down with flu. Flor, do get well soon! God has used you for Uni ESS, He will protect your health and heal you as well! :)
Finally, I had some time to slow down my pace after weeks of tight and packed schedule to breathe slower and think deeper. :) I am also glad to spend some time watching taiwan drama series with my sibilings and parents. Really treasure these bits of luxury and enjoy the moments together.
God, thank you for the day. :)
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